When I was a girl I was me.
I ran happy, joyous, almost free.
I looked to one for my reflection,
and saw my sister there like true perfection.
They say you rarely sample real delights
yet I tasted mine day and night.
a care in the world, had I none other
until that which would turn into mother.
she became mother when I left that day
she took it upon herself, some say,
to teach her daughter how it should be done
every piece of advice artfully strung.
Before, she'd never really been there.
A shadow in the distance, a whisper in the air
yet now she wrote daily with a questioning tone
and a voice which grew stronger yet so far fro
You touched me and I expired,
My breath cold against your lips: hot.
The pain below reaches my eyes in tears
I clasp and grasp, you bite and grip,
Pulling me out to the sea of my pleasure.
X marks the spot my dear, it marks the spot.
You hit it. High like the clouds I evaporate.
Kicking and gnawing, I laugh with eyes
And cry with lips. The hate inside me wells
I turn the other cheek. Acceptance.
The calm of the storm breaks loose, caresses and kisses
Fondles and fumbles, we're both new to the game.
You suck at my neck and I writhe,
You kiss my lips and you smile
Eyes burning into flesh, you seperate fingers, lips.
You come an
I am grey and ill,
Touching myself is sick now
It is green and pale
a thought in the mind
an itch in the hand
a twinkle of the eye,
parting of lips- I vomit.
My head spins like a wheel,
I writhe searching for It.
"It will come," I gasp, "It must
It knows and sees and hears."
It retreats, no ecstacy, no pleasure
I curses and is cursed. The feeling of
the sick in me spoils over.
I am the woman without cause.
Without a nature to speak.
The thoughts of It wound my language
The vomit hardens and I crackle.
She is nothing but...she is something but...
not It. It knows and smiles:
The woman in your ea
You sucked. I groaned.
Soft putty in your playful hands.
Fingers anywhere, everywhere-
Lipstick plastered. A pallet of colours
smeared into one. Mascara seeping-
A black river in the hollows of my eyes.
I laughed and cried. You screamed and roared.
Your red neck clawed.
I turned and you followed-legs intertwined.
Feet violent, arms forced. Smiles the same...
Blood red on my teeth, red on your cheek
I repulsed you then.
Hair wild and wet- angelic curls to vermin's tails. We sweated both,
I was the monster in the night.
The computer glared. Its insides whirred. A little captive in the little box shook.
And with his little hand tapped the sides of the prison he here took.
A protesting bleep sounded from within. She smiled, and yet him forsook.
For the fans blew to cool him as he paced from chip to chip,
And when she pressed the button he would sleep without a blip.
Her little captive woke when she did- he once again shook
And with his little hand tapped in his little nook.
He wished that she would free him and bleeped and bleeped some more
Yet no amount of fanning would cure his inner sore.
He ached to be free- he struggled with defiance
Yet with
You stopped. I cried and fainted- lips blood red, blue with cold.
You licked your lips- liked what I saw, followed me from corner to corner- disappearing from view.
Indeed youre a faded image my friend- scars divide us- the jagged shards of a lost past.
Lost in my eyes- you smile and I smile- you cry and my tears fall, silent and dry.
I touch your smooth hand, palm against palm and feel the self. Myself, yourself, the lost self.
I twist, eyes to the white sky- your eyes trace mine- hands uplifted we rejoice.
A broken path divides your face- an untrodden valley of hidden myths.
I wonder if my deception hides buried there?
The va
You stopped. I cried and fainted- lips blood red, blue with cold.
You licked your lips- liked what I saw, followed me from corner to corner- disappearing from view.
Indeed youre a faded image my friend- scars divide us- the jagged shards of a lost past.
Lost in my eyes- you smile and I smile- you cry and my tears fall, silent and dry.
I touch your smooth hand, palm against palm and feel the self. Myself, yourself, the lost self.
I twist, eyes to the white sky- your eyes trace mine- hands uplifted we rejoice.
A broken path divides your face- an untrodden valley of hidden myths.
I wonder if my deception hides buried there?
The va
The computer glared. Its insides whirred. A little captive in the little box shook.
And with his little hand tapped the sides of the prison he here took.
A protesting bleep sounded from within. She smiled, and yet him forsook.
For the fans blew to cool him as he paced from chip to chip,
And when she pressed the button he would sleep without a blip.
Her little captive woke when she did- he once again shook
And with his little hand tapped in his little nook.
He wished that she would free him and bleeped and bleeped some more
Yet no amount of fanning would cure his inner sore.
He ached to be free- he struggled with defiance
Yet with
You sucked. I groaned.
Soft putty in your playful hands.
Fingers anywhere, everywhere-
Lipstick plastered. A pallet of colours
smeared into one. Mascara seeping-
A black river in the hollows of my eyes.
I laughed and cried. You screamed and roared.
Your red neck clawed.
I turned and you followed-legs intertwined.
Feet violent, arms forced. Smiles the same...
Blood red on my teeth, red on your cheek
I repulsed you then.
Hair wild and wet- angelic curls to vermin's tails. We sweated both,
I was the monster in the night.
I am grey and ill,
Touching myself is sick now
It is green and pale
a thought in the mind
an itch in the hand
a twinkle of the eye,
parting of lips- I vomit.
My head spins like a wheel,
I writhe searching for It.
"It will come," I gasp, "It must
It knows and sees and hears."
It retreats, no ecstacy, no pleasure
I curses and is cursed. The feeling of
the sick in me spoils over.
I am the woman without cause.
Without a nature to speak.
The thoughts of It wound my language
The vomit hardens and I crackle.
She is nothing but...she is something but...
not It. It knows and smiles:
The woman in your ea
You touched me and I expired,
My breath cold against your lips: hot.
The pain below reaches my eyes in tears
I clasp and grasp, you bite and grip,
Pulling me out to the sea of my pleasure.
X marks the spot my dear, it marks the spot.
You hit it. High like the clouds I evaporate.
Kicking and gnawing, I laugh with eyes
And cry with lips. The hate inside me wells
I turn the other cheek. Acceptance.
The calm of the storm breaks loose, caresses and kisses
Fondles and fumbles, we're both new to the game.
You suck at my neck and I writhe,
You kiss my lips and you smile
Eyes burning into flesh, you seperate fingers, lips.
You come an
A daisy sits
Amongst the roses
Inside a garden green.
The sun is smiling
Joyfully bright.
Butterflies dance
From bloom to bloom.
The people that come here
For tea
Stare at the daisy.
"Why is that here?
It isn't a rose."
And all the roses
Laugh at her,
Laugh at her thin petals,
And her exposed pollen.
"You don't belong here," they say.
The daisy doesn't react.
She doesn't even cry.
All she really wants to do
Is shrink into the soil to hide.
My room is the Holy Land, A shaded Tibet,
Whilst the Jack Daniels label is my Holy Scripture
And here, in a sea of circling clouds of smoke,
Contemplating, meditating, within a revolving room.
Dusk light radiates my opaque, toxic epiphany,
To the tracks of teen religious teachings;
High on my Tibetan Teachings, mountain of
Bed sheets and feathered pillows, slowly masking
The sounds with my hands. Fasting on Gold dust,
Off the stomach of my Brunette Idol.
Well, I haven't updated my journal in about 6 months so thought I'd do that!! I just thought I'd let you all know I'm fine- and so sorry that I haven't been on here as much as I used to be- uni work is getting a bit hectic now- I'm in my third and final year!
Well I've just submitted a new deviation which is a part of a short story I'm currently writing! Not sure if it's any good but quite enjoying it and that's the only reason I write!
Hope you're all doing ok! Feel free to tell me how you're all getting on, would love to know! Love Claire xx
Well I'm just sitting here listening to Mika- how amazing is he?! Although not a lot of people will admit that lol! But I'm proud of it! Well I've got no real reason to be writing this but I'm bored so instead of actually doing some work I thought I'd come on this and just ramble lol!
So how is everyone? I'd like to thank everyone for all their lovely comments! They mean so much, as do the favs and the watches!
I'm quite enjoying dA at the mo! It kind of gives me an excuse to write all day when I should be reading! I have a couple of ideas for some new poems but I'm just turning them round in my head at the mo before I put them down onto p
Grrr I hate spammers so much lol! I have got so much spam in the last few days that it's driving me crazy! I just wanted to warn people about poetry.com which is a SCAM! Don't fall for it peeps.
It's quite sad actually because I actually thought the first spam note I got was genuine and actually liked my work hahaha I replied thanking them lol! Still doesn't matter, just thought I'd have a little rant!
Right, well I haven't updated my journal since I joined...so I thought I'd give a little update lol! A big thank you to everyone who has read/favourited my work! It means a lot!
I've got a few more poems coming I expect ('yipee' I hear you
Hi Alwin! So sorry I haven't been in contact sooner- I don't tend to use deviant art much now lol! But it's great to hear from you! Everything's ok here- apart from the weather lol! You'd never know it was meant to be summer here....it rains every day! How are you? xx